Originally published September 4, 2015
Michael and Isabel are finding their places here.
Michael has a spot in the library on the 3rd floor, where he spends his days reading and reading and reading. His place is also in church, daily, in attendance, and in the Wednesday choir. His place is in class, and at the bottom of our stairs, where he has a chair and bookshelf where he can, you guessed it, read.
Isabel has a school, a team, classmates, and a even a class trip this weekend to Atlanta to examine other cultures and bond with one another. She even said she wishes she had been able to come here last year, she's so excited about what she's able to do at this school!
They have both jumped headfirst into their new lives. It puts joy in my heart to see them both struggling in new environments, yet nesting in nicely and finding their rhythm, pace and community in every day life.
I have been more hesitant about jumping in. There have been groups I've meant to attend, but somehow did not get to, and a ministry fair at our new church I begged off.
We have had our first dinner guests - so the hospitality ministry is launched - but that is a service to Michael's community and his life here. I've shepherded my first KOS (kids of the seminary) class, too, another nod to the seminary community.
I do work all day - don't get me wrong - sending hundreds of emails across the country each day, making calls to prospects in Colorado, walking people in Indiana through our software platform, talking to our team back in Greenville. And, for lack of the doggie door, I have to take Jackson outside periodically. So my days are full.
I do have roles here, as Michael will helpfully point out. I am president of a company. I am mom. I am wife. I am top chef. I am runner. I am reader. I am writer. I am list maker (can't you tell). I am shopper. I am organizer. I am scheduler.
But I have always been those things, basically. Michael and Isabel are developing into something new. I'm keeping the ship steady. Being who I've always been.
I feel a little left behind, I suppose.
15Then the king's servants said to the king, "Behold, your servants are ready to do whatever my lord the king chooses." 16So the king went out and all his household with him. But the king left ten concubines to keep the house. 2 Samuel 15:15-16
Is that me, the concubine left to keep the house? Literally. I'm here all day, just me and Jackson and the computer. What does the Lord have in store for me?
I'm on the struggle bus, as my friend Jennilyn says, trying to balance being alone, being in touch, and leading from near and afar. Leading my family isn't hard. Supporting Isabel, feeding Michael, they just need a ride and a meal.
But leading a team from afar and developing a company is another matter. People do it all the time, Michael says. So I'm riding this bus, trying to figure that out. I am trying to keep this house going - our business that supports not only our family, but six others - and build it up.
Today was a great day, on a Friday, no less, with several calls to prospects (no deals, poo) and planning with staff, via email, of course. I feel a little disjointed, but encouraged by the day. I've done a little work to build it, keep it on course, and maintain it.
Left, it takes two screens to do this job!!
Relax, the Lord tells, me. Take one day at a time. I'll take today. It was good.
Now to plan tomorrow night's dinner party.
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